Dylan Mulvaney | Unfiltered

I'm Dylan Mulvaney, I'm almost ready for bed

and this is my Glamour unfiltered.

Ooh, well, what makes me feel the most empowered

is when I stand up for myself,

which isn't always often,

but when I do, I'm generally quite proud of how I navigate,

like advocating for me.

And it usually isn't with fighting words,

even though sometimes I am really tempted.

And how do I deal with online trolls?

Well, the best part is when I'm feeling really pretty

and I'm feeling myself,

and I get to share that euphoria

with like sometimes millions of people.

And the worst part is when I'm not feeling myself

and yet I'm being perceived

or people feel entitled to things

that I'm not ready to share.

I generally stage imaginary fights with them

while I'm in the shower.

And then by the time I get out of the shower

and back on my phone,

I usually have worn myself out enough not to attack back.

When my dad first referred to me as his daughter,

I just felt so grateful for his support

and I didn't think I'd ever have that.

And I think it made me realize

that just because I wasn't able to live my life fully

that early on didn't mean

that I wouldn't be able to live it now.

And I just love my dad.

Hi dad.

I mean, absolutely.

I had lived my life being perceived

as a feminine gay man for a number of years,

and I would never claim that I have like a full grasp

of the nuances of sexism in relationship to womanhood,

like especially this early on in my transition.

But I've watched and I've learned

and unfortunately have experienced quite a bit of sexism

even in my short time on this side of things.

And I can only imagine what would it would be like

for someone to endure that for their entire life.

Ooh.

I think smiling is the real serve these days

because not everyone's confident enough to do it.

And if you're on a red carpet, life is pretty good.

But I will say photographers that tell me to smile,

I don't love that.

I will smile on my own time.

Thank you very much.

Well, I think beauty's really fun.

And it's not everything to me,

especially now that I feel a lot more settled

in my transition,

but it is something

that I don't see myself letting go of anytime soon,

says the girl who is in full glam right before bedtime.

Ooh, this is a fun one.

I think people assume I'm like obnoxious and camp 24/7,

but when I'm not making videos or performing,

I'm like relatively chill.

I'm still fun,

but I think I have a tender side

that I show to my loved ones.

Ooh, I learned there's a reason

to not show the beginnings of a transition.

Just kidding.

But I learned that people don't deserve

to know everything about you

because a lot of them don't have your best interest.

And I should only share what I have already made peace with.

Well, I think it changed the fabric

of my entire life going forward,

but if I can make it through that,

I think I can make it through anything.

And I built my confidence back up

with my friends, my fellow dolls.

But I also did ayahuasca in Peru, which majorly helped.

And you can read about that in the book.

Do I?

Yes, I do.

I feel more protective than ever over my mental wellbeing,

especially after Beergate,

because now I know how low I can feel

and I have no interest in going back there.

So if I feel like something is going to trigger me,

I slow down, I unplug.

I call my life coach or my best friend,

and I talk it out.

Babe, most of these things

that these people are attacking us over

are actually the most iconic things about us.

So don't you dare let go of them.

I will say very rarely do I feel

like I embody a girl status.

And there is no real definition other

than just overall vibe.

But I think that being a trans it girl

is when you don't care

how other people interpret your transness.

And you are the kind of girl,

the other dolls want to be friends with,

like I think of Alex Consani.

She is so it girl.

Well, I love leaning into my femininity.

Femininity.

So, I got lucky in that way.

But I think if I feel pressure to be feminine,

I ask like, where is that coming from?

And if I can self-correct it?

Because I only feel my best when I'm listening

to my own intuition and not to other people's opinions.

I'm loving my body lately.

I am not totally where I want it to be yet.

But I am enjoying the journey and I think it's pretty cute.

What do you think?

No, actually don't respond to that.

Don't tell me what you think.

Well, queer is the word

that I feel best describes my sexuality

and kind of my personhood in general.

But it also is fun because I've reclaimed it,

given that it was slur back in my day.

Shmear the queer.

You ever heard of that game?

I played it and I was the queer.

Well, trans joy is the purest form

of enthusiasm I have ever experienced or witnessed.

I believe it's magic,

and I wish that it could be bottled.

And it's kind of sort of feels like Christmas every day.

I still find it hard to believe

that I'm someone's role model

because I still feel like I don't know what I'm doing.

But if what I've put out there can be a help

to anyone else feel a little bit closer to their self,

that just makes me so happy.

But I'm living for little Dylan,

and if there are other little Dylans watching,

I'm hoping I'm not cursing too much.

Sorry, kids.